I don’t think you could ever fathom
How badly I want to open my heart to you
But you make it so difficult with the strain in your muscles
And the judgement in your eyes
Why do you have to be so mean?
For eighteen years
I listened to the way your voice would shake when you spoke
And I would quiver in fear
My blood still shivering the next day
When you would smile and laugh
As though all that occurred was simply the makings
Of my imagination
I try to be good for you, I really do
But you don’t notice
Or do you just not care?
Because its never enough
And now I’m stuck convincing myself I am good
Not at any certain thing— just in general
Because you always told me I was not.
I love you papa
But did you have to make it hurt
As much as you did?
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